The traveller in me

I am a traveler..
I travel through time...the paths I take, the hills I climb...I don't need no one with me, don't need sunlight to guide me...I'm a friend of the night sky, fireflies surround me.
Nothing distracts me, nothing deters me.
Sometimes I'm surrounded by chaos...sometimes I'm lost...
Sometimes I'm scared and instead of running towards it I run away to safe land...
I like to win but I'm afraid to lose..I make friends hoping they'd stick...but I forget, he too is a traveller and his path ain't mine...
Its a lonely ride, this ride of life...but I live it...and someday someone shall walk beside me.
Until then I'll keep it simple, I'll keep it light...for what its worth life is best when it is a series of surprises..

I am a traveler..
I run through the storm,and I get drenched in the rain...there's moments of pleasure and times of pain.
The wind whisper melody in my ears, the sun glimmer through my hair..and I walk through with a smile on my face.
There's chaos in my head, peace in my heart.....this world of mine I create...I fill it with memory of those times and place.

I am a traveler without a destination yet...I just pick up what I find on the way... both time and my journey never seem to halt, and when u think about it its actually the makers fault..and this is a ONE WAY...I can look back but never go back.. so I look into my bag of memories today...figuring out if I got any dues left to pay...I realize how priceless these are, even though it never cost a dime...and
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"yours are the most beautiful ones throughout my time..."

Traits of her other side

Let me give you a glimpse of her. A peek into what imperfect beauty looks and feels like.
She's somewhat like me, but she's not me. She's like the winter sun, comforts everything with her warmth. She smiles through the pain and cries through the happiness. Sarcasm is her defense and love, her weapon of choice. She's bulletproof, she's a daredevil but surrenders herself to the love of others.

She talks out loud, but all to herself. Her feelings lay hidden in her thoughts. She fears nothing but to not be loved back. She is ready to fly miles for people who wouldn't even take a walk with her. She messes up things because it scares her. But, that mess.. oh that mess..it's so beautiful and neat. It terrifies her when she sees as to how perfect things are going. Don't judge her, she is not used to perfect.

She's just like me, but she's not me. She makes being perfect so easy..her eyes are brown as mine but deeper and clearer. In hers, you will see a much better version of yourself. She doesn't speak much, not because she's shy but you need to help her build up a conversation and once you do she's​ ready to show you her vulnerable side too. She has many people who's ready to hold her hand, but she always turns up to her pen. Oh yes, she writes too. Some for the world to see, and some to set her free.

She's just like me, but she's not me. She believes in old school. She believes in elegance and hand in hand walks down the docks. She will sing you slow songs, feed you chocolate cake and watch you sleep. She's like the firefly to your darkness. Once you own her, she will be your shooting star. She's somewhat like me but stronger and braver. She will give her everything for you without expecting anything in return. But, that's the best part. She doesn't expect. She doesn't hope for a happy ending. She will make it a happy ending. She will do everything in her power to make her fairy tale come true. She will love you like no other, she will care for you like Joey did for Rachel, she will take you to places you've been before but never felt the same way.
She will make you laugh like it's the first time, she will take your life on an adventure ride so pleasant that you will cherish for the rest of your life.

She is just like me but the truth is I always wanted to be like her. She's bold, loved by all..fearless and eccentric.
Me? Well, I worry too much...kept waiting for tomorrows as yesterdays kept piling up one by one.

~"A lot like me"

I choose to be happy today

"You're gonna be happy" said life,
"but first I will make you strong."

How hard is it to be happy?

By 15th December of every year I try to make a list of things I expect/ hope to win from the next year..And by the first week of January my life would already take a different turn so the list gets screwed up anyway. 

Well, this year was different. This year I didn't wish for things like finding true love, or gaining weight, or even a pup for that matter or anything materialistic.
This year I wanted something that almost everybody craves for deep inside but fears to accept. Something that we think money, love or people can give us but can they really?

There are two kinds of people in this world. One whose actions affect u and ones whose don't. Human emotions are funny in that way given how easily its affected by people around you. But that's exactly what makes us a social animal. Win for your favourite team makes u happy, any movie you watch, your emotions flows with the plot like a log floating in the river. Now we know the first one isn't gonna affect us and the second one isn't even real, but we relate to it and its this ability that seperates us from sociopaths. But life ain't a match or a movie or a book it's so much more. You might not realise it but its a part of a big web, every string effects every other and you matter much more than u really know.
Happiness is a false sentiment..an illusion of reality. It doesn't need a reason. It doesn't specify a time.
In words of the great Leo Tolstoy " If you wanna be happy, be."

How hard is it to be happy I ask? It's not, really not. It's a choice, your choice. Being happy from within will make you see the world in a different way. You will see less of negativities and more of "perfect" in everything. When I convinced myself that no matter whatever happens I would never let anything take my happiness away, things changed. I'm not saying always be happy, because then that would make you a psychopath. What am saying is if there's something that's burning you down from within, try to recover faster than you usually do.

A friend of mine told me that the emotion "love" had nothing at all to do with the heart. It's all in the brain. I don't know why that made me upset but he made sense. The brain always goes for the easy option first. It's the brain that makes you remember the little things like somebody's fragrance, or something associated with their favourite colour or place or food. That fact kinda makes things easier doesn't it? Well if the heart had a role in love, we could have never got over breakups or people. So why stress or cry over things that is nothing but electric signals?

Day in and day out, you work your ass off hoping to achieve whatever u wish to, forgetting that achievements are momentary, its an event. What stays is the journey. Do what u love, do what will instantly bring a smile on your face no matter how crappy, insulting, embarassing it is. And, I mean that. I have done so many embarassing things, taken so many first moves, only because it would make me happy for that moment. I didn't care if that hurt my self-esteem, or ego. It made me happy. Nothing matters as long as you are happy. Nothing at all.

I have always been an overthinker, my close friends can vouch for that. I would think deeply about almost every tiny thing, and end up being more stressed. This year I let go of everything. I would think only about what am gonna eat for lunch or dinner because, you know food is priority one. Trust me, I haven't been more at peace. Thinking about what's gonna happen tomorrow, why did someone leave you today or who you're gonna end up with 7 years from now, what will that ever give you? Let it all go. See what stays. Keep, who stays through all this. Keep people you love close to you because one day if you end up being a billionaire I don't wana see you having dinner all by yourself in a fancy restaurant with nobody to share your happiness with. Take pride in being eccentric, try to be as real as u can.. its all that u can really do. But remember being successful and being happy are different, doesn't go hand in hand all the time. Take time for smaller pleasures in life, because without the smaller things in life the bigger things will never fit in.
Everything happens for a reason. It's all connected, I swear. So if you're hurt, broken, shattered by anything or anyone around you, trust me dear there's a good explanation to that. Give it time. Give time time and enjoy life as it flows.

And like they say, your smile will always be the most beautiful curve. :)